Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Blogmas 10, 2013 ❄ Happiness ≠ Inspiration?

It's freaking cold in San Jose right now. The temperature drops like crazy during this past two weeks, and it's not even winter yet. It's not usually like this. This morning, I woke up to ice on my window. I know it's not as bad as other places, but it's the sunny state. Bbrrr..

Last night, I was browsing around and came across my favorite writer. She wrote several novels, in Bahasa, and I've everything but one which I started reading and stopped because the writing style was just different and I didn't enjoy it as much. It was one of her earliest novel in her writing career. She is a banker, a writer, and now I just found out she also draws too. She's really talented. Her name is Ika Natassa, and you can check her blog here.

I enjoy how she manages to pour her critical thinking into meaningful words and conflicts how people feel about something. And then it occurred to me, it's been a while since I write. I mean, really write. I used to keep a journal where I just pour out all my heart and soul into it, and when I read back what I wrote I was amazed how I could write deep things like that. I haven't done that for a loooonngg time. 

I mentioned it to my boyfriend. He used to write too, one thing that we shared in common. He also hasn't been writing ever since we got together. And we agree that the reason is because we are happy now. Not that we were not happy back then. Well, who am I kidding, I can't speak for him, but for me I am definitely in a better place right now. I have someone I can care for and rely on and do the same to me. I'm not alone anymore, and I think somehow it steals that inspiration out of me or at least I think it does.

It's funny how being content makes you not search anymore. I remember reading (or was it listening?) Taylor Swift's interview about her inspiration in writing songs. She mentioned that she was afraid that in the future she will meet someone, be content and happy because heartbreaks have done wonders in her music career. 

I think happiness, or in this case love can bring just as great of inspiration as heartbreaks or loneliness. I just need to be willing to search deep and take time to write again.

What do you think?


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